Have you been in a point in your life when you felt absolutely sure that you are exactly where you should be? Have you ever experienced being so aggravated in a week and suddenly, after making a choice, everything turns in an upward spiral in the next? I have. I believe I just realized this last night. (November 20, 2010)

You know, last week, everything felt like an uphill struggle. As I was so depressed loosing one of my regular students (for a good cause), I felt so dumb and empty. I felt rejected and inadequate not just because I'll have to loose a regular payer but rather that would mean a major MAJOR change in my schedule, my routine. I was on a dilemma on how to squeeze my schedule uptight and make time for my beau especially that he'll have to be based in some other place for work very soon as he'll be transferring to another airline, in addition to the thought of the peak season with crazy flight schedules~ which could possibly mean, "lesser time to least time together". As I anticipated a fee that week, hoping I get to earn an allowance for my travel as well as an amount for my mom and brother, at the spur of a moment, my plans were shattered~ and when I say this, I meant it! Moreover, although I already filed a vacation leave, I got an additional workload which is due on the supposedly date of my departure. But you know what greatly hindered me, it's the guilt that I will be spending on spree and enjoying out there while neglecting my responsibilities at work and family(because I didn't have extra money to send them). I could have been in Cebu City since last Thursday up to this point, enjoying the sceneries, having fun with Jelly Anne, Aya, and Kat, getting the break I deserve, and escaping the life in the hilarious metro~ if not for cancelling my flight and other rolling reasons I didn't make up but probably revealed by the Lord to me. I regret not having to spend time with them (I miss my friends so much!) and missing the opportunity of exploring the wonders of Cebu. There are tons of unforeseen circumstances but I'm dying to get to the point! Might as well say that it's a blessing in disguise! Well, "our ways are not His ways", right?

Obedience is a manifestation of great love. I prayed so many nights for my highly anticipated vacation. The Lord answered indeed in the manner I least expected. I guess, we'll never ever fathom Him~ truly, He maneuvers life in mysterious way
s. well, what can I do, all the downturns that occured last week simply indicated that I needed to obey Him. He doesn't want me to go, not yet.
Last night was one of the best date nights ever! It was like hitting multiple birds with one stone, I'd say. Vic and I attended the Annual Philippine Air Force ACEs Awards Night and Testimonial Dinner at Manila Hotel Ballroom.
It was splendid! Seeing the pilots from the Air Force on their Barong Tagalog, coat-and-tie, and tuxedos accompanied by th
eir best
dressed ladies felt like being in a Mission Impossible movie setting~ and of course, I'm with my "Tom Cruise". For the first time in my entire existence, I got to take part in a momentous event when I'd have the opportunity to meet and mingle with the frontiers of the National Defense. The sparkling chandeliers and the good music made up the best ambience while our conversations with his classmates and the ladies resounded like songs to my ear.
What struck me was seeing the Man behind all the transformations of this country today~ President Benigno "PNoy" Aquino III~ who was the Honorary Guest of the night and who gave very striking remarks. He stood tall before all men and he appeared as neat and serene as he is on television. He doesn't rea
lly look on his 50's. I admired t he gentleman most when he begun his speech. I didn't even realize that he was glancing on an outline. I'd say he's one of the best speakers I've ever witnessed. He seemed so articulate (using Filipino), uses a good diction blended with incredible humor, the transition was so smooth, and most of all he connects very well with his audience. In fairness to him, his stance and approach, can both be effective to the "masa" and even to the elite. To me, he seemed like a royalty (literally).
His words "Kayo ang BOSS ko...Sama- sama tayo sa pag arangkada tungo sa matuwid at patag na paliparan..." suit the occasion most. The analogy was perfect! Unlike the other leaders I've heard, he never sounded so bragging or boastful. As he pointed out the present administration's accomplishments and goals for this nation, he was so objective. I can see the sincerity in its simplicity. Honestly, I never thought that he'd be like that as I used to believe that his sister Kris Aquino inherited all the charm and ability of their parents. I guess I underestimated him. He got the wisdom and ability of his parents~ Late Senator Benigno "Ninoy" Aquino and former President Corazon "Cory" Aquino. I was indeed inspired. Truly, he is a leader Filipinos can look up to.
The speech was succeeded by the Awarding of Plaques and Recognition to the ACEs (pilots) who actively or formerly served the Air Force and those who exhibited exemplary performances at their respective airlines. Then came the moment we all looked forward to~ DINNER! The food was delectable! I indulged in smoked salmon and salad for the starter while I had lamb with spinach and baked po
tato for the main course. The dessert was tempting but I couldn't enjoy it due to my dentures... too bad. Well, I wish I could have taken more photos to entice you but I just couldn't do such in an event like that. Well, I'll leave the rest to your imagination. (",)

Laughters, conversations, and pictorials~ I'll never get enough of these!For such a long time, I didn't experience hardened jaws from too much laughing and striking poses since the last time I hang out with my friends! Whew! Being with Vic's classmates and their wives took me back to my college days when get to giggle endlessly and take countless memories through photography. I guess I'm back to the narcissistic days! I just totally enjoyed the night conversing with them, meeting new people especially those who have been a part of my beau's life way back PAF days and up to today, and letting myself absorb the music! I believe this is what expanding the horizon feels like. It never felt any better than this. Who would've thought that a small town girl like me would go through this?(",)
Well I guess, last night marked the day of my
initiation to the "real society", aye? I'm glad to have found new friends and acquaintances and to be a part of an important event in a special person's life. I don't just like being in social events nor putting on my best dress, but I love being with ordinary people who live extraordinary lives. I'm not after the connection but for the wisdom that I might gain even from simple conversations. I thought I didn't fit in, but I guess I was wrong. I felt exactly right where I should be. Truly, it's a once-in- a- lifetime experience that I will surely mark on my calendar. Indeed! It was a crazy night with the ACEs!
Of course, I would like to say "THANK YOU" for patiently reading this lengthy note. I am just so inspired right now and I didn't want to let anything jump out of my memory without blogging them. I guess I'll never learn how to write briefly, not today, and maybe not for many years to come. Haha!
Lastly, just a few words before I sign- out. Never forget that the Lord orchestrates life in a manner we want them to but rather in ways pleasing to Him. Remember, He created us for His own pleasure. Obeying Him means loving Him. If you feel so distant because you didn't get what you want then you started doubting Him, think again. I can attest that He does things for your best interest. It might not be the one you anticipated, but if you only trust Him with your life and see the big picture, you'll realize that it is for your own good. As much as we all love to have plans, nothing really beats spontaneity and risk- taking. Life is short. Don't let fear and anxiety overwhelm you for you'll never know what a good life is if you do.
(NOTE: Feel free to browse my album in FB for the photos. OH!!! Before I could forget, do you wanna know what happened to the rest of the blunders that occured last week? Well, watch out for my next post...! )
Be blessed!
ciao!
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